"(7) I guess I'll just sit here: absorbing,"

​July 2022. The research for "(7) I guess I'll just sit here: absorbing," helped me grapple with my need to feel immediately useful, which led me to question the utility of the need to feel immediately useful. What is the usefulness in being temporarily not useful? How do we continue to surprise ourselves in predicting what will be useful? What are the consequences of holding 4 pages of ideas top-of-mind "enough" to be able to recite them accurately from memory in one sitting? If there is a compositional structure underlying the finite set that is our thoughts, what are the generators of this finite set?​​